It's Too Late (For Santa)

My GAWD!

Fuckin funny lah.

In case some of you don't know, the last part of the song they were singing something about rehab?? Thats the song by Amy Winehouse.

Btw, The whole fuckin world thinks amy winehouse is fuckin talented and she's really good.

when i say whole fuckin world i mean the whole fuckin world. like all the musicians.

but u know what?

i think she's crap.

i dont like her songs. neither do i like her voice.

but THIS one by Evermore - too funny lah.

hahahhaha

and i like the way they laugh at santa. becos he's all but a myth. isnt he?

its the same as saying what if god is a woman?

tell me singapore where got such talent?

if have, i sure support.

Another 1 month

Another 1 month just flew past! Can't honestly believe it.

What's happened the last month? Lots of stuff but mostly work that i wouldnt want to bore you with.

And my new found hatred for Germans. If you ever get to meet me, you'll know.
if not, just need to know I FUCKIN HATE THE GERMANS.

and whats new? i got drunk at the company's xmas party.
haha

and i'll be on leave from this friday onwards :) super free :D

and i'm heading out to watch SWITCHFOOT live! in Singapore in Jan.

What else? Looking out for new concerts to go to :)

fuelling the only thing that kept me going through mundane, stressful work infested (actually only one) with autocratic Germans.

ciao!

so long

it has been super long since i've last updated - 2 bloody months ago!

what has happened for the last two months?

do you really care?

i dont care to think what happened.

the past does not matter
as much as the present
neither does the future
because no one really knows

learn to grow
i certainly will
each episodes of the past
are steps of growth
twice bitten
it's my folly
fallen i'd become
enemy's jolly

strong i am
stronger than you think i am
can't take it like a man
let me show u how u take it up your ass

happy i must be
better than any anti-ageing regime
hard i worked
harder i won't
smart i will
outsmart i must learn

read on HYR's blog that Timmy! wont be a regular fixture at Timbre.

very sad.

but incidentally - Ngak will go on for bigger things.

i'm super happy for him!

signing off as Ngak's no.1 fan :)

Plain White Ts - Hey There Delilah

A great song! The guy's voice is nice but i have to say he sounds like alot of other indie bands, like Augustana for example.

It's what you do to me....

881 Soundtrack

Some very cool songs indeed :) check out ngak's single!

881 LIVE PART 5 - 身外物 [Black May] by 黄星魁

i think he totally did a jay chou there, but i still love him!

haha :)

SingFest

It was a glorious day.

Not only because it is 8 Aug - Faye Wong's birthday - it was also my nation's birthday eve. And Singapore witnessed her first major music festival - 16 international acts in two days.

Well i only saw a fraction of that 16 cos i was only present on the 8th - but it's good enough :D

MORE THAN ENOUGH.

Sugar Ray~!

After 7 years! OMG.

Not sure if you knew, but they were supposed to come in 2000. Then they cancelled their gig amidst terrorism fears. And no news since!

Not until now :)

Finally. I almost cried when they sang Falls Apart. Not because it's touching but because i couldnt believe my ears that im listening to the song.

Couldnt believe my eyes that MARK McGRATH is right in front, jumping and singing and dancing!

He looks and sounds fantastic, by the way.

Well, he's the highlight for me. Then i've plenty of pleasant surprises...

CYNDI LAUPER - fantastic! She sounds exactly as she does a decade ago. And so energetic.
She wore a wig out before ripping her wig off to reveal her short, cropped absinthe hair.

She asked the crowd: What's the colour of my hair?
CROWD: mumbles mumbles....
CYNDI: Absinthe!

hahahhaha - it sounded absent - then i turned to my bf who went with me, and said ABSINTHE.
i hated shaggy by the way. he did jam with cyndi lauper which was great though.

but i hated shaggy's performance. so vile and so obscene.

robbie williams can do the exact crotch-thrusting thing and looked incredibly sexy.

pleasant surprise NUMERO DUO: EYE CANDY TWINS!

was very tempted to record a performance by the UK's hottest DJs but needed to save it for sugar ray & pet shop boys.

my battery life was struggling!

Eye Candy Twins totally rocked it - they spinned the decks in between sets to keep the crowd entertained while they get their beer, food and went to the toilet while waiting for the next act. Fantastic electrico, house music - lots of energy and not to say the least, they are really quite hot.

They are gonna spin Aug 17 at Bar CoCoon @ Clarke Quay - BE THERE!

And lastly, pet shop boys - just beyond cool.

the pyrotechnics, the dancers, that voice!

i recorded more videos of pet shop boys than i have of sugar ray.

somehow when people asked me how was the concert i've been to, i find it really hard and always struggled to describe to them what amazing things i saw but never really succeeded in doing so.

because there is no words to describe how i feel, really. i could manage a few "it was soooo good" but it doesnt really cut it, does it?

videos are really hard to upload cos it takes hours to do it on youtube. pictures i hope tells half the story. :D



this probably summarises what the both of us were doing there. i was there for concerts. he was there for a picnic.

i refrained from drinking too much water - and there were plenty of beer - which i consciously abstained from it too. BEER MAKES U GO TO THE TOILET TWICE AS MUCH AS WATER DOES. bear in mind, kids.

I didnt wanna go to the toilet there cos public toilets at music fests suck - and u didnt have to go to one to know.

CJY bot like so much food - he even bot ICE KACANG! hahahhahah~

Anyways that was totally random - here goes the real stuff:















so lazy to upload more photos because blogger only allows us to upload one at a time.

what a retard.

i've got more photos on my facebook - add me if you're on & join if you're not :)

laters!

next on the list

november! omg.

and justin timberlake is touring australia during the same month too. someone should bring mr sexyback to singapore!

something to work and look forward to.

on a side note, i saw Sugar Ray & Pet Shop Boys at SingFest on National Day EVE.

the BEST thing i've ever been.

truly quite impressed and happy that i went to such an event in Singapore.

will post pics tmr :) staying in on Sunday.

THE SIMPSONS

SPIDER PIG

don't shoot the messenger

*long entry*

I have to emphasise my enormous amount of hate for the LIVE EARTH promotional video that Channel 5 was airing a couple of weeks leading to 07.07.2007.

Basically it showed a mix of female (who are "naked" - well, we're shown their naked shoulders so what's that supposed to imply?) and male (completely dressed) "celebrities" (u call that host of spell cast a celebrity, not that there is anything inherently wrong with him) making "green statements" that "need your attention".

Things like "they're not exaggerating" or "if you don't do something, who will?" - gives me the goosebumps - actually i think its the way they say it PLUS their facial expressions combined. they speak with such fervour that i find it almost repugnant enough to contribute to alot of global warming by dumping all those plastic bags in the garbage.

But i will not.

The same thing when An Inconvenient Truth, a documentary by Al Gore, highlighted climate crisis and eventually teamed up with Kevin Wall (the same producer who did Live8) to stage Live Earth - received much flak from critics and skeptics.

Critics - including Live8 founder and humanitarian Bob Geldorf - criticised the documentary and the giant-scale concerts as "political" in nature (although Mr Gore maintained that he wouldnt run for presidency) and are mere acts of his political strategy. Bob Geldorf was "furious" when he heard about Live Earth, calling it a "replica" of Live 8 just without the "purpose" - and of course, Mr Gore's choice of name, Live Earth, is seen as one that's riding on Live 8's fame.

I actually did watch 85% of Live Earth - but slept for about 15% - didn't miss much. I get to see keane, rhcp, madonna, the whole sydney, some enrique, some shakira, some BEP, razorlight, smashing pumpkins, metallica etc etc. i did miss john mayer and damien rice though - but i caught the act online.

I was bombarded with heaps and heaps of information. things like what i could do at home to save electricity. something simple like using Energy-Saving lightbulbs - well that's something my house has been doing for the past 10 years at least. things like pluggin out your charger cos they still drain energy.

i was even more determined to live a greener life after Live Earth. Not because Madonna pranced and danced like a 20-year-old. Not because RHCP sang and danced like 20-year-olds. Not because Keane or Damien Rice or John Mayer asked us to remember why we're watching the show.

I feel the show definitely created awareness - it is important to show the world what is going on like in the coal-mining industries amongst others that are contributing to global warming yet nations couldn't do without because thousands of lives depend on it for livelihood.

the dilemma is one decision that politicians and rulers of countries have to face and solve - but often neglected.

yet, as individuals, there are little things that we can do - through little actions of ours in our daily lives. so you saw tobey maguire replaced his old kitchen towels with one made of recycled paper and jennifer garner using reusable coffee filter and ben affleck picking out discarded soft-drink cans from a garbage bin and dumping them in a recycling bin.

and then critics condemned their "celebrity" ways because they jet around in private planes which consumes an enormous amount of fuel which inadvertently emits an obscene amount of CO gases into the atmosphere - contributing to the rise in sea level - because the earth becomes warmer.

when Leonardo DiCaprio stood up for Al Gore and said something (can't remember what) about wanting to make a film about global warming - journalists and media asked if he came for the event via his private jet.

he of course got agitated and even more so when the journo asked him if he felt it was hypocritical of celebrities proclaiming to go GREEN when their lifestyle and habits are in conflict with what they say.

to which he replied something (and i can't remember what) - and also "DON'T SHOOT THE MESSENGER".

i didn't agree at first - but after Live Earth, i actually do.

The concerts might be an avenue for "dying" artists who see this chance as one that will propel them to fame considering the whole world will tune in to watch. And especially for old bands - sad to say - my favourite band, Smashing Pumpkins.

They recently reunited - if you have not heard of - Live Earth is one of their first few performances as the reunited Smashing Pumpkins. And i was elated to watch. :D

Unfortunately i can't help but think and feel (and kinda know) that Live Earth was a platform for them to "announce their reunion" as well as to "seek publicity" and also one avenue for them to showcase their music to the "new generation".

The same went for Live Aid when many "dying" bands revived after Live Aid, and Bono's album sales went a notch up after the performances.

Before you go - gross, all these hypocrites - think before you judge.

As much as the performers, the organisers, the sponsors etc has a different and often hidden agenda, other than that explicitly said of - in this case, climate crisis awareness - the message did get out. And i'm sure a million other people benefitted from the funny, witty and often hilarious recycling short films and the "Answer The Call" messages on how we can make "green" a part of our daily lives.

All i want to say is as much as you feel (or I feel) the ads are gross, mediacorp's green logo is gross, al gore is so gonna run for presidency when the time comes, and di caprio just wants publicity and rhcp is dying for the extra fame (though they really dont need it, i reckon) - don't let all these cloud your judgment and let the message slip through the fingers.

being critical and being aware of all these, puts us in a position where we can objectively choose what goes into our ears and brains. to let all these messages & information affect your judgment and your behaviour and action is to do your intellect a huge dishonour.

Aristotle said "It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it."

Recycling is a habit.

Everyone should make it a habit of their own. I don't even have a green shirt or even a green underwear.

But i am a greener person than those who proclaim and "encouraged" people to wear green to support Live Earth.

*Angry Expletives-Driven Nonsensical Rant* [Fuck lah, wear green means you're environmentally friendly? You're only nice to your mother on mother's day lah?] *had to get it out of the system for underneath all these supposedly fluency of english, i'm really a vulgar ah lian]* so you can actually ignore this part.

I decline plastic bags when i buy stuff from provision shops downstairs and 7-11. Once i bought a bottle of coke and the shopkeeper gave me a plastic bag to which i declined and he gave me a 10cents discount.

and almost 100% of the time, they ask me why and i said, save plastic bags, "huan bao".

they might not understand the true meaning of it - but at least they have encounters with someone who recycles.

Now i will remember to plug out my charger and try my best to use recycled items (even if they're more expensive) and continue my recycling efforts.

DON'T SHOOT THE MESSENGER.

it basically means - don't chastise the carrier of the message and focus on the message alone - if you didnt already know.

ANSWER THE CALL.

Haha - that was a sarcastic and sartorial take on the Live Earth message.

I'm not shooting at the messenger.

I'm laughing at them.

I'm Not a Plastic Bag

Yes. I'm gonna get my hands on this one.

In case you've NEVER heard of this bag? Or you haven't read the news or watch the news that says it caused quite a stir in HK recently.

It is quite the IT bag of the moment, with all that "climate crisis" stuff going on across all platforms and in all media. And of course, LIVE EARTH, and Al Gore, and Leonardo DiCaprio, all played their part in making sure words like "climate change" and "global warming" and "climate crisis" appear regularly in the media who pound on celebrities, politicians wanting to "make a difference".

I have to sincerely apologise for my OVERUSE of the "Inverted Commas" in this entry - to make sure i highlight words that do not come from my heart. SO BEAR WITH ME.

The bag made its first appearance in London, UK -retailing at 5 pounds to much success. It is the brainchild of celebrated London designer, Anya Hindmarch. She's the first one to pioneer customised images on your bag - every other designer who followed suit, followed Anya Hindmarch.

Everybody - from students, to housewives, to men, to gays flocked to queue hours for the affordable bag. It was an initiative to use her influence and power as a designer to raise awareness about "climate crisis", hence the birth of I'm Not A Plastic Bag, at an affordable price. What made it exclusive in a way is that only hundreds were made - so the thousands of people who queued for the bag, some had to go home empty-handed.

Then it was launched in US at a similar price, only slightly more expensive - and it was blue words with blue trimmings.

Anya Hindmarch will launch the Asia version - grey words with grey trimmings - in July. and will retail at SGD$65.

I went to the Anya Hindmarch boutique at Ngee Ann City only to hear that they "don't know" when stocks will come in and that "waiting lists are closed" with "1000 over names waiting" and only "100 over bags" coming in.

Won't be my turn one lah - all the celebrities and socialites and VIPs of Anya Hindmarch who regularly splurge 1000s over, will be on their list - so i am destined not to own one.

Well, maybe not. I bought mine on EBAY for SGD$250 including shipping and will arrive pretty soon!! So i can't wait to carry it.

Non-insiders may say, slaves for fashion, or i'm just trying to be part of the whole bimbotic community of fashion who champion "climate crisis" by spending an obscene amount of money on a bag - and a wannabe for wanting to make a difference.

Maybe yes, i wanted to satisfy my bimbotic alter-ego by carrying an IT bag that nobody else has - cos mine is the US version - haha :D

But i practice what i preach.

I'm an avid recycling person.

Ex-colleagues would know that I collect used paper - those used on both sides - and i would bring it downstairs to the recycling bin for recycling. They laugh at me for being a "recycling freak" and probably thinks that i think i'm one level higher than them as a human cos i recycle - but in actual fact, i DON'T.

I've never chastised people who share different values and beliefs from me.

i don't eat shark's fins because it's a personal choice - cos i feel no demand, no supply and that poaching and cruelty to the sharks would be reduced via this action of mine.

At wedding dinners, i'd just decline my bowl or give it to someone else.

But i've never said stuff like - u know the sharks are innocently killed for their fins, therefore i don't eat and therefore i'm a higher human and you're not.

Haven't you met over-enthusiastic and over-zealous "non-meat" (cos they're technically not vegetarian by definition) eaters who chastised our love for bak kut teh, bbq chicken wings, roast duck and char siew - because they are inhumanely killed so as to end up as delicacies on our dinner table?

i'm sure you get my drift.

Truth is - Recycling is a habit - once you have it - it's like brushing teeth, you don't forget and if you do, you reprimand yourself for forgetting to do it.

I can absolutely carry that very expensive bag of mine proudly because my conscience is aboveboard and clear.

Not some hypocrite who screams "SUPPORT LIVE EARTH" or "DO YOUR PART FOR CLIMATE CRISIS by WEARING GREEN" - who probably "almost" never (give the benefit of the doubt that this person has at least done it once) recycle and drives a non-environmentally friendly car that consumes fuel and contribute to the emission of CO gases into the environment. In case you think being Green is about wearing green, YOU ARE SO WRONG. and IGNORANT.

This is like a prelude to my next entry - on LIVE EARTH.

Huan Bao = Recycling

My mum just showed me a whole mountain of plastic bags - those clear big ones used to store clothes?

She then said to me, throw them away on your way out.

Then i looked at her with horror in my eyes - and said NO! We must HUAN BAO.

So she asked me - What is HUAN BAO?

I said, HUAN BAO is to ZHEN JIU DI QIU (Save the Earth) - cos MEI YOU DI QIU (Without the Earth) - JIU MEI YOU NI (There won't be you)!

To which, she said SIAO (CRAZY) and ignored my "LIVE EARTH" message.

Regarding Live Earth - you must've guessed i would have an opinion on that!

:)

I actually do, but im too tired everytime after work to even blog about my opinions.

But i eventually will.

Live Earth is a godsend - to concert junkies like me.

I just need to shout this out.

Recycling is a habit. It is not a movement - because only you can make it a movement and make everyone else a part of this moment.

It is not about wearing GREEN to show your support.

And definitely not appearing on TV and chastise people "If you don't do something, who will?"

It is ABSOLUTELY NOT about saying and proclaiming things like "I SUPPORT LIVE EARTH" because it is all talk, and no action.

How many of those who say they "support LIVE EARTH" - actually recycle?

It is not about using both sides of the paper.

it is about putting USED paper (as in both sides are used) into the recycling bin. I was the only one in my office who actually do that.

It is also about reusing plastic bottles - and/or placing them in recycling bins.

it is not about screaming out your "green" message on MSN or tell people to wear green to support or to make your logos green *ahem* *mediacorp* *cough* to show support.

it is such a joke.

alright - my rant stops here - so i can blog objectively about LIVE EARTH in my next entry.

first day. finally.

today marks the end of my lobo-ness & nuah-ness.

no longer can i stay till the wee hours of the night, sometimes even in the morning watching videos on youtube.

i love youtube. you can watch almost everything.

no longer can i wake up at 11am or even 2pm having to do nothing.

i admit that it gets kinda depressed having to do nothing but i lavish in the sweetness of having nothing really important to do.

cos tomorrow is the first day of work!

I've taken up an AE role - which is really the entry level - at a global PR agency. I've met the team already when i went to sign my appointment letter *edited out because this is my blog*

and the team seems to be quite tightly-connected & closely-knitted.

i'm feeling very nervous and very apprehensive because i worry about whether i can fit in.

i'm also very excited about my new job and job scope cos i'm moving from fashion PR to technology PR. how exciting :)

there is gonna be so much for me to learn and i'm sure i can excel. i hope :)

*edited out because i feel like it* - Raffles Place folks, let's meet for lunch :D

oh btw, I have to blog in my next entry a very funny conversation between me and CJY about raffles place.

basically it's an entry to mock and ridicule his intellect. so must join me lah :D
hint: "is raffles place a building?"

sometimes i dunno whether he is acting dumb to make me laugh or he's really dumb dumb.

hahaha~

remembering

today i had dinner with daddy at chinatown.

then went chinatown's OG to shop. this OG has heaps of memories. the favourite place my parents like to bring me to. used to have a restaurant upstairs? i wouldnt say they serve fantastic food - but i aint no gourmet, i always look forward to having my meals there...

now im like so big liao - brings back alot of memories.

then on the way back in the car, the topic of sea sea came up.

and it is the first time, i sensed sadness in my dad regarding sea sea.

at the pet hospital - that goddamn mount pleasant - all of us are wailing our hearts and lungs out on the sight of her motionless-but-still-warm body.

none of us were prepared for her death at all. :(

she was still very much alive in the morning. being her usual self.

but papa is the cool one who didnt shed a tear and asked us not to be sad. esp to my mummy.

and asked us to all go home (since it was 1 am when it happened).

subsequently life had to go on - and while we were all mourning - he was making sure things happen and life goes on.

i never thought he felt sad. i think maybe he's strong enough to handle death maybe.

today i felt sad. because he felt sad.

he was telling me how sea sea would climb onto his bed and lie down beside him. then he would inch back cos he didn't wanna have "skin contact" with her - rather i think he wants to give her more space.

and sea sea would pretend to sleep then wake up then inch back and lie skin-on-skin with my dad.

each time my dad moves back, she followed suit.

little actions like that endears our hearts and she has always been the darling of the family. eventually - my dad gave up his place on the bed and slept on the floor while sea sea slept with my mum.

my daddy commented: she died too early.

i think its a matter of suddenness.

barely a week since i came back from australia - she passed on.

everytime someone asks about sea sea - i feel a lump in my throat.

everytime i talk about her - i have to struggle to contain my tears.

everytime i think about her - i still have to struggle......

it is so hard.

:(

i really hope i dont have to deal with death again.

i suck at this.


nobody said it was easy. no one ever said it would be this hard.
oh take me back to the start.

i hope you are happy wherever you are. a place where you get to gai gai everyday and eat mcnuggets and drink coke every day. a place where you have the biggest beds and the softest pillow to sleep in where you don't have skinny feet after your bath. no apple to bully you. a place where you can run forever and not pant. no more medicine and pills and medicine and pills.

;(

Little Britain - Sebastian is jealous

sebastian - my favourite character after carole.

i heart jurong

well i have no reason to hate it or love it.

i don't feel an extreme attachment to any particular place that i live in because i enjoy moving, i think. i like the excitement of being able to move into a new environment and living anew.

i've got a couple of friends who liked to make fun of the fact that i live in jurong because they live in the eastern side of singapore - which i don't have an opinion about.

i have tonnes of opinions on alot of things (that i feel are critical and important and not something shallow like where you live) but not on the place you live in.

of course, i know they are jokers, they joke and clown around and sometimes makes me the clown. which is completely fine, because i think the ability to be able to laugh at yourself and to make a joke at your own expense, is priceless.

it proves that we are of a higher mettle than those who struggle to maintain a specific posse and "image" in front of other people who can only hide their insecurities behind their GUCCI or LV that they didn't even fuckin pay for.

i recently met someone who annoys the shit hell out of me. of course, many who know me will claim that i have the longest list of those who annoys the shit hell out of me. which is true and untrue.

truth is - there are alot of irritating and annoying people around me.

the un-truth is - i do not have the longest list, i'm pretty sure somebody else beats me to this.

well i refuse to describe how annoying that person is because it's a means to no end.

but i'd like to have aired some of my views and perspectives on some of the issues that we talked about during that particular meeting that i am unable to voice out because that person is the most self-centred thing on earth who does not care about other people's opinions and if there is a solution to the problems, that person would've thought about it already.

about status:
apparently that annoying person feels that i am someone of a lower class because of where i live.

that annoying person sympathizes with me when i had to catch a cab home "all the way to jurong" from town.

and that annoying person worries that it is "too expensive" for me.



about relationships:
i hate to sound like a bitch but i am truly the most blessed of them all. i do not need to list down whether CJY buys GUCCI for me (of course he didn't) or if he opens the car door or whatever.

I think people should stop playing to what the TV tells us, what the newspaper tells us and absolutely disbelieve what the trashy magazines are telling us.

that the perfect guy is this... that ...this and that.... blah blah blah.

CJY is FAR FROM PERFECT. he's the most imperfect guy EVER. he'd have failed the "most romantic guy" quiz posted by Cosmopolitan.

But he's undoubtedly THE BEST.

all he ever wants for me, is to be happy. he sometimes make decisions that would baffle him but puts a smile on my face.

CJY has his ego and his pride and his basic instincts as a MAN but he understands and puts them aside so he objectively handles matters and me, so he gives me all the respect I deserved.

A good man is someone who loves you.

because when he loves you, he respects you. As a woman. As his girlfriend. And even more so, as his mother of his child.

because when he respects you, he wants you to be happy.

because when you're happy, his job as YOUR MAN, the protector, the pillar of support, the MAN OF YOUR LIFE, is a job well done.

because he needs to feel that he's fulfilling his duty as your man. your boyfriend. the one who holds your hands even when they're wrinkly.

and the luckiest girl is someone who has this pillar of support beside her all the time.

someone who loves and respects her as a woman, and as a girlfriend.

people get married or plan to get married for all the wrong reasons - they get married to someone who doesn't love and respect them - which explains why divorce rates in singapore is on the rise.

so.........

what is my point?

someone may claim to love you but does all the things that restricts you like stopping you from doing this and hanging out with who.

and in order to prove that he's right, he does the same. severing ties with all his friends so that there is no double standards.

therefore this shows that he loves you.

can anyone get any dumber?

and the dumbest of them all:

the girl who feels that having a man who restricts her basic freedom of who to go out with, when to reach home, where she goes and her choice of friends, is someone who loves her and what she has to do is to "accept it". worse, tell her friends who are in similar plight to "accept it" too.

the real friend will offer you support and advice but never to ask you to accept your fate.

don't get me wrong, i am not in favour of "fighting for your rights" or "fighting for your stand" and that sort of shit.

but i am an advocate of believing in standing by what i believe in and not compromise on my morals and values. if something is happening to me that is not congruent with what i believe in or what i want - then i will search. for an answer.

CJY & I came a long way and we've had our fair share of fights and quarrels. What i am happy about is that we are able to have a 2-way conversation where he shares with me his unhappiness and i share with him my unhappiness and agree that we both wanna stick it out and therefore, will try to compromise and make things work.

so...again.. what is my point?

i will not be friends with dumb people.

well that annoying person is not even a friend to begin with so there shouldn't be any real problems.

but what saddens me?

people around me or my so-called friends hang out with that dumb annoying person.

and i am a strong believer of you are who you hang out with.

birds of a feather, flock together.

simple as that.

my circle of friends is diminishing day by day.

:-(

but i take heart that i have met someone who will be there for me every single moment and to top it all, he loves me. he truly does.

another long post - but followers of this blog, aren't you used to it already?

to hell with dumb people.

PS: must be my PMS.

Simpsons Judging American Idol

LOSE THE ACCENT!

haha~

Dogs vs Cats

Got this email from a very good friend.

I enjoy receiving and reading funny, humourous emails like this from friends.

but sometimes people sent junk mail, virus emails, and those stupid chain letters. i don't read or download emails that i think are junk or possibly-viral-infected. i dont think i missed out on anything cos i hardly get intellectual true humour or any email that was worth the click on my mouse.

so....it is especially refreshing to enjoy a pure good laugh when i saw this mail.

TOO TRUE! Haha :D

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Excerpts from a Dog's Diary:

8:00 am - Dog food! My favourite thing!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favourite thing!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favourite thing!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favourite thing!
12:00 PM - Lunch! My favourite thing!
1:00 PM - Played in the yard! My favourite thing!
3:00 PM - Wagged my tail! My favourite thing!
5:00 PM - Milk bones! My favourite thing!
7:00 PM - Got to play ball! My favourite thing!
8:00 PM - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favourite thing!
11:00 PM - Sleeping on the bed! My favourite thing!



Excerpts from a Cat's Diary:

Day 683 of my captivity: My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects.

They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.

The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the floor. Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates what
I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about 'what a good little hunter' I am. The audacity!

There was some sort of an assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of 'allergies.' I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow-but perhaps at the top of
the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released-and seems to be more than willing to return. He is possibly retarded.

The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicate with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe........

for now.....

Snow Patrol - Signal Fire

their latest song featured on the Spiderman 3 Soundtrack. Heard this towards the end of the show, and i thought it was Five For Fighting. Then the very smart CJY said it's Snow Patrol.

He is after all the first person who told me about RUN.

Which i am still listening to till today.

Chasing Cars is a replicated piece of commercial success destined to rule the airwaves but never my eardrums.

Haha~ cos i got sick of the song - damn terribly sick.

I shall see how long this song can last.

Apparently this song is written specially for Spiderman 3. And the soundtrack is pretty awesome cos you've got The Killers, Wolfmother, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Jet... And also, apparently some of the songs, if not all of them, are written specially for Spiderman 3.

so this is a very dedicated album. i wanna buy!

This song is sooooooooo haunting. but the chorus is kinda coldpay-ish. doesnt it reminds you of the chorus of FIX YOU? NO?? Then you probably have to make a trip to the doctor cos you're deaf.

YET!!! Gary Lightbody hasnt got that heart-wrenching voice, cos if you look at the video, he sings with a slight smile in his heart - so it shows on the face. Therefore, it can never sound heart-wrenching.

so it didnt really catch me. cos i like heart-wrenching sounding songs with a voice so haunting it won't get out of my head.

but the beginning of the song got me hooked.


"The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you"

:-)

Snow Patrol Tours Australia in Sept

I am not a huge fan of Snow Patrol.

I mean i liked a couple of their songs but i hate CHASING CARS.

like i used to like it, and then i just got sick of it.

But i absolutely LURVE RUN.

although i'm not a fan, but i still wanna go watch them.

it's just that, they're so "in your face" and like "everywhere".

just when you think your eardrums can take a break from chasing cars, there comes signal fire.

a haunting song! my god.

i heard them sang live on a mp3 that i downloaded before and i thought that's got to be the shittiest band in the world cos they cant sing live for fuck's sake.

then i went youtube and search for their live videos and they're, well, mediocre at best.

then i stumble a few videos that well, could make me change my mind.

so i dont know.

but i'd like to find out for myself.

Perth Sept 22 - still got time to save money.

i will not be rash and impulsive so everything needs plans.


the trip to perth, air tix on budget air and accomodation, will cost at MOST S$600. It WILL be less than that cos you dont need to stay in perth for long cos there's nothing to do. so probably 4 or 5 days is quite enough and i will budget say S$1000?

definitely gonna cost less than that cos only stayin in a couple of days and accomodation is pretty cheap if you're not choosy.

so if i start work and i save S$500 per month, in two months, i'll have enough money to go.

:-)

now that's a plan.

any interested parties? we could bunk in together and save on accomodation.

now i gotta convince CJY. or maybe you're convinced already, u reading this u kuku?

:D

Dozing Off

Fuckin funny.

The Killers - Read My Mind

this is the other video of READ MY MIND. this is the studio version so this is actually quite LIVE.

:D i'm impressed.

Augie March - One Crowded Hour Live on Rove Live

And they did a pretty good job singing LIVE.

i'm impressed.

the lyrics to this song is damn damn damn bloody poetic.

"if love is a bolt from the blue, then what is that bolt but a glorifed screw"

- first thing that came to my mind is Frente's Bizarre Love Triangle where "everytime i think of you, i feel a shot right through a bolt of blue"

then they described september as golden and june as purple.

i dunno but i think because june = winter so therefore = purple cos purple = cold? haha u know like bruised and blue-black.

september = spring and in my opinion is the BEST season of all and therefore it is = golden.

like all poems and songs, it takes on a different meaning to different people.

the key to a great song is one that "speaks" to so many people at once.

like FIX YOU by Coldplay.

and i present you the lyrics to this song.

Now should you expect to see something that you hadn't seen
In somebody you'd known since you were sixteen;
if love is a bolt from the blue, then what is that bolt but a glorified screw?
and that doesn't hold nothing together
Far from these nonsense bars and their nowhere music it's making me sick
And I know it's making you sick
There's nothing there, it's like eating air
It's like drinking gin with nothing else in
And that doesn't hold me together.

But for one crowded hour, you were the only one in the room
And I sailed around all those bumps in the night to your beacon in the gloom
I thought I had found my golden September in the middle of that purple June
But one crowded hour would lead to my wreck and ruin

And I know you like your boys to take their medicine
From the bowl with a silver spoon
Who run away with the dish and scare the fish by the silvery light of the moon
Who were taught from the womb to believe till the tomb
In as far as their bleeding eyes see
Is a pleasure pen, meant for them, built for and rent for them
Not for the likes of me
Not for the like of you and me

And for one crowded hour, you were the only one in the room
And I sailed around all those bumps in the night to your beacon in the gloom
I thought I had found my golden September in the middle of that purple June
But one crowded hour would lead to my wreck and ruin

Oh but the green-eyed harpy of the songland
She takes into hers my hand
She says, "Boy I know you're lying
Oh but then, so am I,"
And to this I said "Oh well."

They put me in a cage full of lions, I learned to speak lion
In fact I know the language well
I picked it up while I was versing myself in the languages they speak in hell
That night, the silence gave birth to a baby
They took it away to her silent dismay
And they raised it to be a lady
Now she can't keep her mouth shut

And for one crowded hour, you were the only one in the room
And I sailed around all those bumps in the night to your beacon in the gloom
I thought I had found my golden September in the middle of that purple June
But one crowded hour would lead to my wreck and ruin

One crowded hour, you were the only one in the room
Well I played a few songs for those bumps in the night
In fact I played this very tune
You said, "What is this six-stringed instrument but an adolescent loom?"
And one crowded hour would lead to my wreck and ruin.

Augie March - One Crowded Hour

My favourite song at the moment.

If you know me only too well, you will know that I'm a song killer.

which means i KILL the song. LITERALLY. hahahahahaha~

i killed jason mraz's I'm Yours till my friends didn't want to be anywhere near my car cos i put the song on repeat. REPEATEDLY.

i played the song ALL the time. and i listened to it all the time.

Augie March, i found out is an Australian band. From Melbourne. Looks abit old but that guy has a very haunting voice and adds that sad-angst tinge to the song.

first heard this song when listening to the radio that plays rock on QANTAS. and i copied down the whole song list on my boarding pass.

so now i have enough songs to set up an indie radio station.

haha~ my room sounds so indie with all these bands now.

N76

Blogger is fucked up.

arrgh....

Anyway, my obsession du jour!!

NOKIA N76 :-)

So gorgeous. Unlike my current big ugly and bulky one.

I WANT TO CHANGE!






it takes photographs.

answers calls, can call out, can receive sms, can sms.

and i can listen to radio and/or music.

and it's THIN.

good enough for me.

and i insist on getting the black one because the marketing folks probably came out something for everybody and the black goes to the men while the ladies get the red.

how patriarchal.

i refuse to be a victim of patriarchy.

THE BLACK ONE.

:-)

Planet Earth

Have you seen it?

It is the best documentary EVER.

It is also the most expensive documentary ever made.

Some media reviews say you can see every cent spent on the screen.

But it is truly amazing.

Technology and clever people has allowed us to see the Earth like we've never seen her before.

Alot of satellite shots.

all in all, it is something that i follow religiously.

i think i might have found something on youtube so i can show you what i'm talking about.

it's on air Wednesdays 10pm Arts Central.

Only a couple more episodes to go though.

i wish it'd never end.

:-(

disillusioned

it is very easy for one to become disillusioned.

disillusioned about things happening, about environment.

one can also be disillusioned about what he/she wants in times of desperation.

like the absence of money. which is essentially the absence of power.

money = power

cos it speaks louder than any languages.

i'm glad i'm strong enough to keep telling myself very consciously not to lose track of my goal and vision.

but i fear that desperation sets in and i sink into a realm of disillusion.

then i'll be back to square one.

which i absolutely do not want.

so i will persevere.

Patriarchy

Blamer of Patriarchy, I am.

And i hope to do my part to educate JUSTIN (my son, in future, if i do give birth to one) about the existence of patriarchy and how it is misogynistic and its myopic view on women, had such a huge impact on what has happened and what is happening - in particular what it does to women.

So that my son, JUSTIN, does not belong to one of those moronic ad fucks and fashion assholes, who only strives to drive patriarchy to a new level in an (un)conscious attempt to demean and devalue womanhood and promoting violence towards them.

take a look at this.



















i've seen this ad run in singapore before, haven't you?

of course, nobody (in sillypore) gives a fuck.

and i actually believed the ad & fashion morons thought that was an ingenius piece of art.

if only the world can see what i saw.

Reunion!

OMG.

A REUNION.

A REUNION!!!!

I cannot believe it.

I might have the chance to catch the pumpkins after all.

because they are touring!

OMG!

why do i get so excited? for sure i know they're not coming to singapore.

:-(

They broke up in 2000.

And i was so gutted that i made my dream one that would see me through all of my heroes' concerts.

Smashing Pumpkins was a godsend.

I wouldnt have got past Sea Sea's death without them.

i know it sounds silly but music has healing abilities.

i saw through it (the songs) and tell myself it's not the end.

because the beginning is the end is the beginning.

:-)

PS: james iha has confirmed that he won't be part of this reunion. :-( d'arcy the original bassist before being replaced by melissa auf de mur, has not confirmed yet. so it's only billy & jimmy for the mo.

wentworth miller

he's like damn cute.

i did not catch prison break at all.

no. not even one episode.

but that doesnt mean good-looking men goes unappreciated.

haha~

and u know the gossip celebrity site perezhilton.com?

they say he's gay.

NO.

and wentworth miller said this once:

"I once gave someone who was going cross-country a clock. I set the time to where I was, so that when I called we would look at the clock and always be together at the exact same time."

- so cute and damn sweet lah.

porridge

i don't know how you like your porridge but i like my porridge "ko ko".

"ko ko" in hokkien - i don't know how to explain but the porridge is not the watery kind.

it's has very little water and the rice bits are all like sticky and coagulated.

not the teochew porridge kind - i hate the teochew porridge kind of porridge. might as well let me drink water with rice in them.

anyway, my daddy doesn't like so that time when I was trying to cook porridge, he was shocked.

i left the fire on to evaporate the water off and went to watch tv.

he turned off the fire and tells me it's done.

then i went and see, of course, not done lah! so i on the fire again.

then he was like, it's done! later the porridge gets burnt.

so i'm like i like the "ko ko" porridge so cook abit longer.

and he's like, ok i scoop out now and eat first. i don't like that kind of porridge.

thing is, nobody in the family likes it. my mum doesnt like either.

my sis - she just doesnt like food in general.

but my mum knows i like so whenever she cooks porridge, it'll be in my style.

mummy knows best.

A Realist

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Muse - Time Is Running Out (Live at Glastonbury)

This is the LIVE version of TIME IS RUNNING OUT by MUSE.

Glastonbury is a dream mate. i dunno when i will ever be able to make it.

I've already missed out on all the good Glastonbury shows.

Someone i met last year at Coldplay's Melbourne concert said he's been to Glastonbury "a couple of times" and he first saw Coldplay there when they werent as big. Just the beginning of the "A rush of blood to the head" fame. and they rocked the little side gig with POLITIK & Wowed everyone.

ANYWAY....

I am here to make a point, again. :-)

The next video is the original song.



Now why am i showing you this?

Jo Jo, my friend, if you're reading this, i'm just ranting my views. everyone's entitlement. :-)

Jo Jo said to me that NGAK does a better rendition of this song.

Well, this is not the first time i heard someone say NGAK did a better version of the song.

Wilson said NGAK does GIVE IT AWAY better than RHCP.

I can understand why they said that cos i'm such a huge NGAK fan and to be honest, i've thought that way a couple of times.

i think ngak does a very good cover of GIVE IT AWAY.

But i certainly do not think his version is better than RHCP.

it is the aura. it is the stage presence. it is the connection.

after my rhcp experience, i'm like, there is no way ngak can be better than him (anthony kiedis). maybe vocally, cos ngak is younger and AK is like 40plus but that aura, that charisma is something that AK has inherently that is beyond any imitation.

People who does covers can only do so much as singing as close to the original of which ngak did to a perfect T and still injecting his own style which is very much commendable and makes him one of the best live performers in singapore.

but that song, it belonged to rhcp and i cannot illustrate enough, that covers will always be covers.

similarly for time is running out. i know ngak did a fantastic version cos it is a difficult song and if im not wrong, it is in a minor tune? Musicians can feel free to correct me. Minors, are so difficult to sing.

the original version probably wasnt mindblowing after hearing ngak's version first. but you have to compare live versions with live versions. MUSE blew it away.

look at that energy. look at that crescendo when he sang the chorus....

i'm a huge fan of ngak and i am not a blind teenage girl who thinks he's god.

because he's not.

i am very critical of live performances because i have such high expectations.

and i think ngak & his band timmy is one of the best in singapore.

absolutely better than EIC whom i dont give much of a damn.

so ngak's not perfect. i hate it when he does FIX YOU. He just doesnt own it. There is no connection AT ALL.

FIX YOU is a very meaningful song and i have come to realise because alot of you came up to me and say, u know, i really like FIX YOU.

because it can mean different thing to different people. ngak's version sucks.

a couple of the coldplay songs - not too good either. I've heard him sang THE SCIENTIST a couple of years back but it wasnt mind blowing either.

what i'm trying to say is we can give credit to people who does fantastic covers but we can't take that special honour away from the original singer.

if that makes sense..

:-)

Justice - D.A.N.C.E (Version Finale)

This one's quite amazing.

Love the t-shirts.

Boogie Pimps - Sunny

Found the original song for SUNNY.

NO - it's not this one.

But this one just sounds so much funner.

:-)

UNREAL

it is so unreal.

seriously?

it's super duper UNREAL.

haha~

ngak wished me happy birthday.

a grand total of 4 times.

and he gave me a birthday hug.

haha~

OMG!

all thanks to my beautiful friends.

full story later.

but i'm really psyched.

not to the extent of insomnia but i'm really happy.

havent been this happy for a couple of weeks.

i mean havent been happy since i came back.

haha~

tata *xoxo*

SUNNY

this is the song flea sang.

unfortunately i didnt record it but mine would have kicked ass if i did.

longer - instead of like crap 40 over seconds.

better FRONTAL view - obviously cos i was in the mosh.

better quality - cos my camera which can multi-task as a video recorder is THE BEST.
well maybe not the best but better than yours (theirs).

and i would've caught the whole damn song.

BUT I DID NOT.

cos i dunno why but i somehow was reserving for scar tissue.

and of cos my battery had to play dead on me so i was saving the battery life.

if i recorded this one, i might not have the battery to record scar tissue if they played.

alas...........

u heard my story. they didnt play scar tissue.

but they did play give it away of which i did record.

and it kicked ass.

its 100 over mb so i cant upload onto youtube.

damn.....

NOW I GOT MY ANSWER - THE SONG IS CALLED SUNNY.

:-)

French Coldplay

i can only understand the beginning like he said Good evening. I'm sorry for my french, but...So, My name is Chris Martin.

haha den in the middle of the speech he said something like mon ami bob - which is my friend bob.

then of course, who doesnt know merci.

haha~

WHY??

my impression of John Mayer after i've seen him live in Melbourne is that he's a thinking musician.

he doesnt give a hoot about what he wears.

or how he looks.

he's got this mane of curly locks.

and every song he writes, has a story.

WHY THIS?!!!!






























apparently he defended her honour at some award show when the media questioned about his apparent love relationship with Jessica "bimbotic bitch" Simpson.

He replied them in JAPANESE can.

and the translation is saying how beautiful jessica is and how the world and the rest of us will not see.

VERY TOUCHING AND VERY SWEET JOHN.

but JESSICA?

you've lost it.

i know she got big boobs lah!

ALL MEN AND THEIR OBSESSION WITH THE BOOBS.

men i'm in love with have abhorring and the most disgusting taste in women.
























talented and cute.

it is therefore beyond my comprehension why on earth he fell in love with the trashbag below.

seriously.

the old shoes of nick lachey?

my fucking god.

i adore john and whatever but this is just not acceptable.



























Absolute TRASH. i repeat. TRASH. GARBAGE. RUBBISH.

Maybe she's really awesome in bed then.

funny

so damn fucking funny lah!

i cannot stop laughing.

that's justin! i think he's damn cute.

desire

i am like BROKE.

not broke but BROKE - as in SUPER BROKE.

i returned home couple of weeks ago after my OZ rendevous with about $250 left in my bank.

i have since ALMOST exhausted the money.

Arrrgh - and i want a new camera.

my IXUS 40 just isnt working for me anymore, mate.

the lack of my desire optical zoom is one gigantic problem. it's only 3x optical zoom.

the video mode doesnt allow us to zoom and uses alot of battery.

i was in orchard road recently and saw this ad when i was down on an escalator.

the CANON POWERSHOT TX-1.

10X Optical Zoom.

TEN TIMES OK!

and it's a hybrid of digital camera and digital camcorder.

A BLOODY HYBRID.

my solution to good photos and good videos at my concerts.

apparently CNET gave a lousy review say its not "ergonomically designed".

my thinking is... as long as it does its job.

:-)















and it's tiny too.

it's just perfect.

RPP $799. Which is not too bad considering i bought my IXUS 40 at its peak and spent around $650.

So i am selling my IXUS 40 if anyone is interested or know of anyone who's interested.

My IXUS 40 is in excellent condition - only reason for letting it go - i need something more.

Aaaah - i know i need a job.

But i think i'll take my time and find a really good one.

God Bless ME~

rhcp

*WARNING: A VERY VERY LONG ENTRY*

yes. finally i am blogging about IT.

my virgin RHCP concert!

on another note, i've also been to the john mayer concert but it's kind of being overshadowed by rhcp - not because it's less than lacklustre than the latter & on the contrary i'd rate the John Mayer concert better than rhcp (more on that later, see i can't stop rambling now) but because i've been a rhcp fan for soooooooooooooo long.

and i must HAO LIAN again. i think i've grown to be such a good photographer. look at the photos i've done! My immediate near future goal is to sell my camera - and buy a better one with like 30x optical zoom. haha. anyway, my digressing stops here.

let the pictures speak the millions of words i wanna say.

The hot guy in pink is Fab Moretti (Fabrizio Moretti). Doesnt ring a bell? He plays the drums for The Strokes. He was there at the RHCP concert with HAR MAR SUPERSTAR - the opening act for the RHCP Stadium Arcadium Tour. Who's HAR MAR SUPERSTAR? Another white guy who raps.

a little older.

a little fatter.

ok............... ALOT fatter.

and a little more controversial. Australians find his act done in bad taste but i just find him amusing because i have a good sense of humour. :-)

He later on went on to strip down to his underwear - gyrating and thrusting at the audience. you have to be there to even remotely understand what i am saying. Being amused is such an understatement. Anyway the main point of this entry is RHCP. Of course i like to see the opening act which explains why i always go there earlier than most ang mohs, they dont give a hoot about the opening act unless it's someone they know.

well har mar superstar is HANDPICKED by RHCP so they must've seen something in this fat old bloke who raps. Yes, did i forget to mention? He's a rapper yo.

Now the real thing..........

Flea is my hero! He sang A SONG - i dunno what. After humming it to quite a few people in australia and singapore, nobody seems to be able to answer me. I got an answer from my stupid sis who thinks she's damn smart she knows. LOVE IT WHEN U CALL BY THE FEELING. but it's not. cos i downloaded the song. and it is NOT.

i realised i have taken a couple of good shots of the band - not chad smith though cos he's at the back playing his drums very much often blocked by the energetic band.

John Frusciante keeps giving that look - that i can only describe as "orgasmic" literally without sounding too obscene. Give it a guess and let me know if you want me to describe more.


a lot of misgivings about this concert.

FUCKING ALOT OF MISGIVINGS.

THEY DID NOT PLAY SCAR TISSUE.

that's like THE SONG i have to hear! :-(

cos that's the first rhcp song of mine.

then they didnt play Californication.

That's the first rhcp song i educated to CJY.

and they didn't play under the bridge. :-( like super classic can.

they didnt play parallel universe - apparently they didnt play much of this song in their tour, if at all. cos dann hume of evermore went to catch them too but he was "gutted" they didnt play parallel universe.

SO I CAN WHINE AND GROAN ABOUT HOW SUCKY THE CONCERT IS.

OR................

MARVEL AND RELISH IN DELIGHT AT HOW CLOSE I AM TO ACCOMPLISHING MY GOAL IN LIFE.

:-)

i DID GET CAN'T STOP. (WHOOHOO!)

They played By The Way - which to many, was the best song of the nite.

They played GIVE IT AWAY as an encore - that was the best song of the nite in my non-humble opinion.

i don't understand why we have to be humble when we have opinions.

they played FORTUNE FADED. (there you go....)

and they played a whole string of songs from their latest album.

only two songs i KNOW - dani california & Snow (Hey Oh).

both i liked to a mediocre extent.

i didnt even buy the latest album - will eventually buy it but not now cos im broke.

the point in the concert is to hear the songs that accompanied me growing up LIVE.

all their new songs had absolutely no meaning for me at this point in time. they might in future but not now.

so it meant alot to me if they'd sung Scar Tissue. Arrgh, so sad after the concert.

Cos they played Scar Tissue, Californication & Under The Bridge during their debut Melbourne gig.

But i've moved on. Coldplay did it once with TROUBLE. (if you hit on my July 2007 archives you can read about it)

Lesson learnt?

Have enough money to go for all the shows they're playing in that particular city. They played 3 nights in Melbourne - i of course only had $ to go for only ONE.

Before going to the show I googled for news on the opening act and chanced upon an article that reviewed RHCP's first melbourne gig on april 8. I was damn excited to read that they played scar tissue and all that stuff. stuff that i was expecting to hear.

Then of course, i didnt hear them.

Then i went to do a search on the internet and found this April 8 Setlist that RHCP played during their first melbourne gig.

Intro Jam
Can't Stop
Dani California
Scar Tissue
Charlie
Readymade
Throw Away Your Television
This Velvet Glove
John Solo (For Emily??)
Snow
Nobody Weird Like Me
Wet Sand
Right On Time
Don't Forget Me
Hump De Bump
Californication
By The Way
---
Trumpet Jam
Under The Bridge
Give It Away
Outro Jam

--- fuck lor, according to sources, they only played UNDER THE BRIDGE ONCE.

and they played it in Melbourne's first gig. ARRGH!!!

Therefore, i must earn enough money to be able to afford at least 75% of their shows if not all. To ensure the experience is complete.

Never mind, i am now back in sillypore - so i shouldnt complain.

So there you go.

and here i am, too broke but too happy.

people get shocked or surprised and finds it unbelievable to find that i actually travelled all the way to australia to watch the concert.

well, firstly, it's not ALL THE WAY. if i travelled to LA or NY - then it's called ALL THE WAY.

we're only 7 hours away from down under. and it's not like im unfamiliar with the place.

it is quite daring, brave and whatever your adjective is - for me to travel on my own to watch a bloody concert. and the first expressions will be: you siao ah. or you sibei bo liao.

expressions that i abhor but i do not blame. because people are quick to judge.

i think what i did is no different from the guy who bought a BMW 5 series and had to eat bread for breakfast and dinner. he skips lunch to save money on the bread so he could pump petrol.

only my purpose & cause is more noble cos i am doing this for nobody but myself. that bmw guy is doing it for himself but it is to satisfy man's intrinsic desire to be superior (i have devised a theory on superiority which i am too eager to share so shall post it in my next entry when my thoughts are more settled).

as much as i am excited and happy about my trip - i hesitate to share with friends who are not close. because people are quick to judge. it is sad but it is in people's nature to judge. therefore i do not blame.

my dream - since i was little - well, in my teens - is to attend the concerts of all the heroes who have grown with me and was there for me when i didnt have CJY.

I went on this trip by myself without CJY cos he's got work commitments. My dream has to go on with or without him.

people often ask, why you want to travel alone?

i do, not because i want to, but because I CAN.

Music played an integral role in my life and many a time, i got through my tumultuous teenage years and even adulthood with music.

My dream is not to own that ferrari - but to hear Scar Tissue live - amongst other songs of course.

It is a simple dream.

It is not normal for someone in our culture and context to have such a dream.
But it does not make it SIAO or BO LIAO.

In a land where everyone's dream is to have a baby and you say your dream is to own a Lamboghini - they'd call u siao & bo liao too.

only difference is you can be 50 when you bought your lamboghini and it is not too late.

for me, time is of essence. i can't just jet sets off to a country and catch a concert over the weekend because i am not financially empowered to do so considering i WIPED OUT most of my savings for this.

and i can't be jumping around with the kids at 50? and the thing is most of the bands that i adore may not even be around when i was 50.

i am only young once. and my dream keeps me alive and inspires me to strive hard to earn enough keep to sustain my attainable dream.

the reason that keeps you going to work everyday even when you're dragging your sorry ass is that car or house or diamond or whatever item that society tells you is of prestige and status that you so desperately desire.

mine is something that money can't buy and something that no one can take it away from me.

of course it is also something to show off to the grand kids.

it does not make me any better or superior than you are as is your goal in life does not make you any better or more superior than i am.

for all the world can laugh at my dream and belittle it saying i don't have a proper goal in life thinking their goal is so much bigger (and therefore better) than mine.

i take heart in knowing that i have someone who sees right through me and supports me in almost everything that i do :) and never too quick to judge, planting a kiss everytime i frown.

nothing beats having a real confidante and that someone in life to see you through the ups & downs of life.

like i said, i'm living my dream for no one but me.

i think he agrees with me.

so long guys. thanks for reading till this point.