Monday, January 10, 2005

4th Anniversary

Today marks the 4th (!!) year of togetherness between me & my kuku bf. To alot of people, 4 years is really long. Hmmm...actually i think so too. :)
It's only like the blink of an eye yeah?

I cannot believe that me & chua darling has been together for 4 whole freakin years!! I mean, we're two very different people to begin with. When i say different, i mean we are REALLY different. It takes more than just words to describe our vast difference in personality, character, values & thinking. You've got to personally know us in order to sprout out: You guys are really different. One of his friends said that before. So what's new?

I remember that sometime into our 2nd year and 3rd year, we are toying with the idea of breaking up. Tell me that this doesnt happen in relationships & i'll punch u in the face. *Not because im angry or pissed BUT cos im trying to knock u out of dreamland, fairytale-land & fantasy-land. Doing a kind deed ok.

It's only the frequency, baby. My sister (Sharon: u can visit her blog here if u want.) brings this topic of breakin up to her bf (Jim) almost every other day. However, they always find time & ways to make up. They're still together as of this minute.

All in all, im trying to say, no two person can co-exist without having friction & difference in views. I mean you have to recognise this point before you decide to give the relationship up. You'll never be able to find anybody who can be with you forever & ever without having any problems & arguments.

I remember penning break-up letters that never got sent out & never reached his hand (although i suspected he might have secretly read them before). Those were kept in my bag, cos nowhere in my house is remotely safe from the prying eyes. I'd describe how i felt about him not loving me in the letters & cry myself to sleep every night. Those were a freakin long time ago. It always boils down to one single underlying reason for our quarrels: our difference in views & thinking. We will start by getting him to voice out his thoughts. Once his mouth opened, i'll be fuming mad.

Why? Cos i simply CANNOT understand why on earth can someone be so kuku, & why he thinks the way he thought. Seriously, till this day, i still cannot understand him. I still cannot agree with him on certain things.

The reason why i am holding on is because I KNOW HE LOVES ME. And of cos, the feelings are reciprocated. :) Maybe until the day i find another person who can love me more than my kuku bf does, i might consider. And it's also this reason that gives me the excuse & reason to be a little bit more forgiving, each time he behaves like a kuku.

What happens when a couple engage in a heated argument? It's either, the boy apologise, the girl apologise or to each his own. :) Simple as that.

Hence, it's a very CONSCIOUS effort between two parties to want to make the relationship work. At least for me. :)


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