omg

how could he not win?

omg!!

like seriously OH MY GAWD.

i didnt even watch ANY of jonathan leong's performances live on tv - i watched them on youtube cos i was in australia when it all happened.

gen was like - u know whose jonathan? He's damn cute.

when she showed me - im like - ARE U SURE? i mean timmy is cuter - haha~

BUT!!!!!

i fell in love!!!!

when i heard him sing SMOOTH. When you're gone.

OMG - like seriously that voice!

how did that mudd guy win??? arrgh~

they sang this song "YOU GAVE ME WINGS" - which i suspect is highly imitative of "YOU RAISE ME UP - Josh Groban" - a song written for the Singapore Idol (whoever wins the contest).

FUCKING BOYBAND CAN.

LIKE A BOYZONE SONG.

didnt really like the song.

ok....i hated that song.

i heard jonathan's version - and thought it was gruggy but ok lah.

i almost puked my soya bean this morning when i heard hady reach those high notes.

like seriously ...... my gawd

I AM NOT UNHAPPY THAT JONATHAN DIDNT WIN.

I AM UNHAPPY THAT HADY WON.

because it is not a bad thing NOT to win Singapore Idol - because Idol contests winners are never the best singer.

winning is NOT all that matters.

however - i am extremely unhappy someone like hady could win or even remotely compete with jonathan.

but u cant award someone with that kind of NEGATIVE potential with something that is supposed to mean - good or even best - when he is absolutely not. Just like taufiq and sly.


WELL WE'VE ALREADY GOT TAUFIQ - WHATS WORSE THAN THAT PIECE OF SHIT.

that is not a question - that is a statement - or what they say a rhetorical question that needs no answers to. (in case u wanna correct me by saying i put fullstop instead of question mark).

i am actually glad that jonathan is not singapore idol - and he should be too - cos if he does win, he'll be singing all those "aspiring" , "inspirational" songs. What dreams lah...fuck lah...

he sang crash cars by snow patrol lor.

omg - he's gonna go further than any singapore idols will lor.

oh and he sang SHOULD I STAY by DREAMZ FM!!!

Tat is like how difficult cos the original had such a high voice and so much falsetto!!

JONATHAN MADE IT HIS OWN LOR..

---- and wats worse abt this whole singapore idol thing?

they got previous idol contestants including taufiq and sly to comment.

FUCK U CAN

WHO THE FUCK ARE THEY TO COMMENT?

THEY CANT EVEN DRESS PROPERLY.

CANT EVEN OPEN THEIR MOUTH PROPERLY - AND CANT EVEN TALK PROPERLY.

talking and behaving like they're experts.

just a reminder - THEY ARE EX CONTESTANTS WHO DIDNT MADE IT. MEANING THEY'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE CONTEST.

and they can go comment on jonathan or whoever's singing?

im like - sooooooooooo fucking disappointed with singapore media.

ARRGH.

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this is as usual - a kao bei kao bu entry.

but i cant blame myself for having too many opinions on too many things lah~

i like the way i am.

disgust

somehow people who broke up with their girlfriends/boyfriends deserve more sympathy than those who have to deal with the death of a loved one.

no doubt the loved one is a 4-legged piece of furball - it's a living thing, breathing, eating, peeing, shitting, whining and cuddling like any other human being because it is a living thing.

it just disgusts me how many people think that losing a dog is equivalent to that of losing a goldfish.

i dont need sympathy nor attention from anyone because i am strong and i am independent.

i reveal my vulnerable side to a selected few who wont judge me for anything in this world.

sea sea's death has affected me in more ways than one and i am taking it harder than expected.

it has been a month and i am not remotely over it. Every morning, i wake up and i think of her. Everytime i come home, i think of her. Every nite before i sleep, i think of her.

Many times when i was on the bus, i would think of her. Sometimes when i was working, i think of her. Almost everytime im having lunch, i think of her.

I appear ambivalent and nonchalent about it in front of my friends because i dont want anybody to ask me about her and wants to offer me condolences because i cannot deal with all these. I might just break down - even consoling smses from friends drive me to the brink of tears at times.

the past one and a half years - i was having the time of my life in australia, pursuing a dream that would last me a lifetime. the opportunity cost is the time with my loved ones.

i wasnt around to watch her grow old and sick and weak.

i shouldnt have to deal with her death the moment i came home.

too many regrets...

i am a very positive person - if you, my friend, didnt already know. And i hate imposing my feelings and emotions on other people.

Just because i am smart with my feelings and emotions, and i am strong enough to control them does not mean people can take my feelings for granted and assume i can and had gotten over my dog's death.

i shall not go into my opinions on breakups for it will appear insensitive to many.

people cant deal with raw emotions and confrontations - they squirm when the truth is told.

why do i have to deal with stupid people all the time?

crumbling down

the happiest three-hour in my entire week so far.

wu bai, mc hotdog and zhang zhen yue.

they sang AI PIA JIA EH YA as the final encore - and my camera battery pack had to give way.

if i ever find the energy to do anything again, i'll post up close up pictures of them.

im like 8 rows from them - not the nearest but not too shabby :-)

lost

sometimes i wish she'd turn up at my door

cos she just got lost ........