time

if you have to go, don't say goodbye

if you have to go, don't you cry

if you have to go, i will get by

someday i'll follow you

see you on the other side

~ For Martha, Smashing Pumpkins

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you spent so much time in life fighting for things, running away from things, living and surviving, that you neglect some things in life that has been there all your life.

then one fine day, it took a hike and went to the other side.

you realised you took it for granted all the time, all the fuckin time in your entire fuckin life, that it is always going to be there.

i said before - nothing in life is worth rushing for.

yet i wished i could've travelled faster than 140km/h last night.

i have never fought for her - never been there for her..

not even the last moments of her life.

this sunday @ east coast park was never meant to be ...

if only she could.

i'm taking it harder than i expect i would

because there are too many what ifs, i should haves and endless regrets..

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maybe the big guy above wants me to learn

maybe it is time for me to learn to grow up and be a true adult

maybe it's bad karma happening to me

maybe this is a lesson - cruel as it is

the morals, values - however painful

i have to learn