fix me

when you tried your best but you dont succeed

when you lose something you cant replace

when you love someone but it goes to waste

could it be worse?


--- i hope i do i do i sincerely hope, lights will guide me home.


this is a song that i can never tire of hearing (a pity ngak does a lousy rendition of it).

I've been listening to this song since the launch of X&Y and i am still constantly listening to it because it just makes so much sense.

give it away

love this song ~ who doesn't?

i realised RHCP doesnt sound exactly like they are on their albums - like coldplay does, so does mraz.

but they possess such energy on stage! i cant believe it.

they are all above 40 years old mind you.


p/s: i am currently in the midst of saving money so i can go back to down under in APRIL 2007 to catch RHCP.

my dream is attainable.

i just have to perservere.

even if i have to do it alone.

who's the judge?

i find it extremely hard to swallow when people judge me.

SHALLOW PEOPLE ESPECIALLY.

i find it extremely repulsive when people judge people.

who are they to judge?

i find it absolutely unacceptable when my friends judge my friends.

seriously. WHY?

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i pride myself as a character of good virtue, integrity and personality.

i have heaps of friends because of my easy-going personality.

i also do not - AND I PROUDLY SAY SO - say something bad to a friend of another friend in an attempt to make one person dislike another aka back stabbing.

because i wanna go to heaven and meet sea sea there.

i also believe in karma VERY STRONGLY - hence i think twice about my actions.

yet i have friends who judge my friends.

WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE?

i am very proud to say that i don't judge people.

you can fuck around and sleep around - or you could've been in jail - or you might have done something wrong, like stealing, or cheating etc, or u could've taken drugs before or are taking drugs.....

I DON'T JUDGE.

the reason being i've seen it all.

do not ask why i did but i have.

and it really is nothing -

john lennon was a drug addict, so is anthony kiedis, and currently tom chaplin of keane. winona ryder was convicted of stealing...

jude law (im so in love with him) cheated on sadie frost - and then cheated on sienna miller again.

they are all celebrities in the public eye.

and they have all done wrong.

what is wrong anyway? who said blah blah blah is wrong?

because we live by standards that society has set upon us.

because they are only humans.

so is everybody else and to err is human.

in primary school - if i wear a red rubber band, i am wrong.

where is the reason in that? because it doesnt go with uniform? because school rules say it is wrong.

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because of the way i am, i have quite a bit of friends almost everywhere.

and i like the way i am because i see things and learn from their experience without having to go through all that they've gone through.

when my friends start judging my other friends - i get defensive - maybe it is natural reaction.

maybe i feel my friends should have confidence in my character that i do not befriend people with dubious character.

the worst part of it all is they are the ones living in their own small world of their own and start judging people with their narrow mind and their tainted eyes.

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i will continue to be the way that i am because i have reached this stage of my life where i am extremely comfortable in my own skin and totally in control of myself.

i think the biggest reason is that i have come to terms that not everybody in this world will like me and that i am totally cool with that.

as long as you dont go around my back telling all my other friends untrue things about me or spread tales of your own delusion, i'm fine.

SERIOUSLY EVEN IF YOU DO - ALOT OF PEOPLE HAS DONE THAT TO ME ACTUALLY, WHAT CAN I DO?

let's be mature about it - seriously - i dislike alot of people, but i have always kept my comments to myself. Not because i'm scared or what but i feel it is up to my friends to choose their friends.

i can only be consistent with myself and just be who i am and ignore people with mediocre minds and character and *hope* that my friends who knew me for who i am - will not believe all those poisonous tales.

i am really glad that along my path of life - i've met many friends who believed in me.

THANK GOD FOR KARMA.

i dont need to prove anything to anyone.

i only have to live with myself.

because i only have myself to answer to.

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can YOU answer to yourself ?

爱情限时批 (Ai Qing Han Si Puay)

Very Very Groovy song.

Heard it at the concert - fell in love with it and being the usual me, i totally overkilled this song on my windows media player.

Tried searching on youtube previously for this video but couldnt find. Tried searching today again and found it.

Must be a damn old song lah - look at Wu Bai!! Still so skinny!!! He was damn fat during the concert.

And that WAN FANG.

Look like a TAI MEI. As in Zhang Zhen Yue's song.

FUCKING AH LIAN - dunno shake what shake..dance also dunno how to dance properly.

SERIOUSLY HOW DID SHE END UP BESIDE MY IDOL SINGING A LOVE SONG?

ARRGH~

all the men that i like have seriously poor taste in women. i give up.

gonna figure out a way to put this on my mobile....

scar tissue

this song i'm sure many of you knew is by red hot chili peppers. im just pretty surprised i found this video of this song by gorillaz.

like i used to like gorillaz quite a bit when they first came out - and then that kind of feeling i have for coldplay and evermore didnt stick.

then i saw their video with madonna - the one they performed at the grammys....

IT WAS HILARIOUS CAN............................

speaking of scar tissue - this is a very meaningful song cos this is the song that made me took note of RHCP.

my dream of catching them in 2002 was not fulfilled.

2007 is my chance - i hope i get to go australia and catch them in april...!!!!!!!!!!

like a birthday pressie for myself - money money money..........

home

you were supposed to be part of my second-home plan.....

alone i am now. alone i shall perservere.




you run to where?

u off in a better place?

u get to gai gai everyday and go wherever u want?

u still panting?

ur heart still murmuring?





see you when i get there.